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Earthchild

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  1. @Mandy Thankyou..  well mostly I’m anxious about the future, feeling very unsettled.  Not knowing what I’m going to do.  But see I’ve always had this sort of feeling. Thing is when I was younger though I would ignore the feelings by doing things to escape like drinking etc.

    It seems like it’s getting worse as I’m getting older, I thought we were supposed to become more carefree with age but it seems the opposite for me haha. 
    I’m definitely in a limbo phase, but also been having more obsessive thoughts, like what am I gonna do? And praying for guidance.  
    Just not getting any answers or direction..
     

  2. I suffer with low moods, my whole life.  Don’t know if I have some kind of high functioning depression, since it’s never bad enough that I can’t get out of bed for example.  
    But rather like I’m walking around with a dark cloud hovering over me.  Some days I’m good. 
    Possibly cycle and hormone related. 
    It’s at a point where others comment on my mood and I’m seen as negative .  Even though I’m not actually doing anything, but simply me being withdrawn and quiet is enough to annoy some people. 
    I’m wondering if I have a mood disorder? 
    Some days there is a feeling of impending doom so to speak.  For a while now I’ve been feeling in limbo and have this trapped feeling. 
    I was thinking to try 5-htp to see if that helps with serotonin levels? 

  3. desiderata - max ehrmann
     

    Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

    Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

    Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

    Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

    Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

    Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.

    Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

    Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

    Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

    And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

  4. @Devin I believe in oneness in the way that we should show love and compassion to others and care about their experiences. And we are all in this together. I understand that there is no cold hard proof that someone is having an experience, but I assume they are and I always try to imagine being in that persons shoes and what they’re thinking.  Because of my job I’m talking to many people every day and meet a lot of people, I guess it’s hard for me to believe they aren’t having their own lives and experiences when I don’t see them.  
    So my view of oneness is different to your view. But how do I know your view is the right one? 

  5. 1 minute ago, Devin said:

    You can only experience one experience, believing there's another experience going on outside that experience is faith/belief, there's no proof another experience is going on.

     

    You can't prove once that person leaves your experience that they continue to exist, you can't prove they're experiencing something, you can only hear what they say, and see them.

    Are you talking in absolute terms?  
    what about 2 people enjoying an experience together, you’re saying the other person doesn’t exist? 
    where is your proof that the other person isn’t having an experience? 

  6. Maybe someone can explain to me this example: 3 people are in a room and only 2 of them take psychedelics.  2 of them are seeing all these crazy things but the other person doesn’t see those. The 2 people tripping see everything as one and everything around them disappears, but as the sober person looks at them they are simply rolling around on the floor and the walls are still there.  The physical walls will remain whether you are tripping or not.  
    how’s is everything becoming one not an hallucination?  
    I can’t ask this question on actualized without being told I’m stupid or not awake enough, so plz be kind 🙂 

     

     

    …and how is it not an escape from the here and now? 
     

    i can understand using them for healing or an awakening now and then.. but using them regularly and using a lot,  isn’t that an addiction (maybe you’re not physically addicted like with other drugs but you can still get mentally addicted to the escape and the experience) 

  7. 7 hours ago, Blessed2 said:

    I do experience worry and doubt at times, that I might never know for certain if Leo is right or wrong, if he actually is the highest conscious being and better teacher than anyone else, that others are ignorant.

     

    I do experience doubt at times, whether I am fooling myself, being immature, and will eventually have to return to that forum and say "yeah I was wrong". At times I feel like a 'pull', like the thoughts of doubt and wondering if Leo is actually authentic and legit, are true. And that I have fell from the real path, and been mislead. It makes me feel worry and sometimes anxiety, that I just can't be sure and might be sucked back into a place of thought where I feel fear, insecurity, powerless etc.

     

    Sometimes I wonder if evil and evil energies are real, and if Leo is evil, or Phil, and trying to hurt me.


    isn’t that just like a sign of toxic behaviour from someone? Like manipulation/gaslighting.  Maybe he’s unaware that he does it I don’t know.  But what I noticed is that he will be abusive towards his followers, and refuse to change or won’t listen.  Then when enough people start complaining he will write out long message explaining himself and how he plans to change in the future, and how the way he speaks on the forum Is just testing ground for his ‘real work’ yada yada.  So then people think ‘ oh maybe he’s actually nice’ and then feel bad for questioning him.  So it kinda gets turned back around on the followers like it’s their problem to deal with, without him taking any responsibility. 
     in the ‘real world’ he doesn’t have anyone questioning or confronting things to him either since he’s pretty isolated.  I wonder how he would actually behave in reality. 

  8.  Leo speaking with such disrespect to the forum member scholar,then other members side with Leo to gang up on him, then Leo has the nerve to say ‘don’t gang up on him’    
    it’s feeling really culty over there right now.  
    I don’t know why but people kissing ass triggers me lol 

  9. There are many people who have those insane trips on psychedelics, they just don’t have a platform to tell everyone.  Or they don’t care about telling everyone.  If he’s specifically saying no one has experienced the alien mouse thingy, then maybe.  
    only way to know if anyone else in the universe experienced that he would have to ask everyone.  But he doesn’t have that big of a platform.  If for example Elon musk tweeted his experience, he would have millions of responses.  Leo has the people on his forum and those who watch his YouTube videos. 

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