Valley2Mountain Posted May 28, 2022 Share Posted May 28, 2022 (edited) Couple of months ago, I left my engineering studies because I felt it wasn't it. The idea I had about it didn't match reality. After unwinding a bit, I wanted to experience something new in order to get inspiration for my next goal. So I joined a volunteering project, that creates engineering solutions for disabled people. Helping them to improve their day to day experience or get back to their hobbies they had prior to the injury. Also, I started to work part time as an instructor/teacher for kids in elementary school. Teaching them about nature. The thing is, whenever I'm trying to retrieve insights from those experiences, like whether I like it or not or if I'd like to pursue any of these directions, I become clueless. I feel kind of apathetic towards them. I don't feel an excitement or a pull but neither resistance. I feel like I'm just participating in it, sometimes it's better and sometimes worse, but there is no overarching distinct feeling about any of these directions. Is my general emotional state overshadows my ability to reflect upon those directions? Should I even base my decisions on emotions? They seem slippery. One day you like something, other day you don't. Should I continue my search for a meaningful career and passion, or am I deluding myself into thinking that this thing exists somewhere there and I need to find it? For example, Cal Newport suggests just to pick something and master it. I don't understand though, how a person could pick something in a robotic fashion and master it, excluding his emotions from the equation. What do you think about it? Generally I feel lost, tired, frustrated from this search as well as sincerely worried about my future. I'd like to stop searching and start already to master something in life... Edited May 28, 2022 by Valley2Mountain Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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