Eternal Posted April 30, 2022 Share Posted April 30, 2022 Another day that I am laying in bed wasting my time doing nothing at all. Not even knowing how to express myself on this journal, everything seems so forced. I feel a sense of emptiness. I am way to much in my head to the point where I don't even know what to say. I experience unhappiness on a daily basis a majority of the time. "I say tomorrow is going to be different" but that never happens, every day repeats itself. Like it is groundhog day, over & over again with this damaged ego identity. It feels like I am just wasting my existence doing nothing with my life. I tell myself, I need to introduce productive habits but it never happens. I think negatively a lot with a victim mentality. I know what need to be done but nothing every seems to get done. I seem to enjoy being complacent & lazy to the point where I don't even really know what I enjoy in life. I don't even know what to do for a career. It gets to me mentally & emotionally being under my family still with a bad financial life. I should of grown up by now.... Why do all these negative thoughts constantly come up to my surface, anyway I am going to switch off now as I don't want to journal when I feel like I cannot even express myself properly Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faith Posted May 1, 2022 Share Posted May 1, 2022 @Eternal Hi and welcome to the forum! 💙 Have you tried to get therapy? Quote Mention You're a thought. Do you think a thought is going to occupy 'no thought'. The 'changeless' can be realized only when the ever-changing thought-flow stops. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faith Posted May 1, 2022 Share Posted May 1, 2022 I have a bit more time to post now. Sorry that you aren't feeling well. It's hard to say without knowing you if this is something you can pull yourself out of by setting some goals and motivating yourself or if it's much more serious and you require therapy. What do you think? Quote Mention You're a thought. Do you think a thought is going to occupy 'no thought'. The 'changeless' can be realized only when the ever-changing thought-flow stops. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eternal Posted May 1, 2022 Author Share Posted May 1, 2022 12 hours ago, Faith said: I have a bit more time to post now. Sorry that you aren't feeling well. It's hard to say without knowing you if this is something you can pull yourself out of by setting some goals and motivating yourself or if it's much more serious and you require therapy. What do you think? I think I require therapy as it’s been ongoing for a while, trying counselling next week. I just don’t seem to get any kind of satisfaction out of living. Maybe I need to get back on SSRIS, I really don’t want to though. But I feel like I am just wasting my life Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faith Posted May 1, 2022 Share Posted May 1, 2022 1 hour ago, Eternal said: I think I require therapy as it’s been ongoing for a while, trying counselling next week. Ok, yes, sounds like that would be a good idea and I'm glad to hear you have something set up. I had suffered severe depression before in my life on/off and many times saw therapists. I like your username. Maybe use it to remember you are bigger then "this life". 😉 Quote Mention You're a thought. Do you think a thought is going to occupy 'no thought'. The 'changeless' can be realized only when the ever-changing thought-flow stops. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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