Orb Posted June 26, 2023 Share Posted June 26, 2023 New things are unfolding. It's time for a new season to blossom. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 26, 2023 Author Share Posted June 26, 2023 The ultimate most aligned routine is coming: Tomorrow I will: -Wake up Early -Drink some Lemon Water -Get on my Bicycle and have a great ride -Take a Cold Shower when I get home -Have a GOL shake -Work/Study for an hour or 2 -Prepare a cup of Tea and take it with a low dose of kratom (green vein) -Experience the awesome boost in energy/focus whilst studying and taking notes -After a few hours have passed if the body can handle it: A calisthenics workout -I will prepare a nice delicious meal with healthy Meat, Complex Carbs, and vegetables -Then read a book / meditate -Then "sleep" Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted June 27, 2023 Share Posted June 27, 2023 ‘Smell the roses’ all the while! Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 27, 2023 Author Share Posted June 27, 2023 @Phil I will, I mean...am. They smell great. did you know my last name means flowers? lol Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted June 27, 2023 Share Posted June 27, 2023 @Orb Perfect lol. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 27, 2023 Author Share Posted June 27, 2023 @Phil Oh also, im watching your new video, I think there's a typo in the title of the video, It says "You can't become enlightened and yet you arent already" it seems like it should say instead, "You can't become enlightened and yet you are already" Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted June 27, 2023 Share Posted June 27, 2023 “You can’t become enlightened & yet you’re not already.” Could actors in a movie become the screen? Are there actors in a movie? Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 27, 2023 Author Share Posted June 27, 2023 @Phil no they cannot become the screen. The actors are what the screen is appearing as, they are not inside or outside the screen, they are the screen already Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 27, 2023 Author Share Posted June 27, 2023 @Phil I relapsed on kava, but it's alright, I've been studying and being productive today anyways Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted June 27, 2023 Share Posted June 27, 2023 @Orb 👊🏻 Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 10, 2023 Author Share Posted July 10, 2023 My stomach hurts from the kava I drank. I tried to meditate but the sensations are just too uncomfortable, I can't be at peace with this! I want what is to be what is not, but that's impossible. This is why I will fast for a few days. It will be a water fast, I must face the inner demons, I must walk through the desert and put all my faith in the Self. This is where hopefulness is at. It will also save a lot of money lol. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 10, 2023 Author Share Posted July 10, 2023 Thoughts arise of me not having made any progress/regression whatsoever, this is hard to swallow. Im not sure if im full of shit or if real change is occurring. I stay silent as I walk through the world and the truth destroys all doubt, yet doubt returns and tempts me. I can't meditate for more than 30 minutes without feeling uncomfortable, Ive seen monks meditate for 18 hours like its nothing. This showed me how much immaturity is still left in this experience. When the teachers speak of no-mind and equanimity it is the real deal, it's not a metaphor or some philosophical BS. The truth is that thought very much still runs the show in this experience. Im always getting lost in thoughts even during meditation. I have never had a single session where I didn't at least get lost in thought once. It seems impossible to not get lost in a thought for a whole day, and on top of that the rest of ones life, that's fucking crazy. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 10, 2023 Author Share Posted July 10, 2023 All of the non dual buzz words are annoying me. Stuff like "you're already enlightened, happiness is already the case, etc.". Like yea you can repeat it over and over again but the truth is you don't always feel okay. When I wake up and feel groggy and have no motivation, I don't give a fuck about non duality or any of those fantastical sayings like happiness is already the case, tell that to people who are starving to death and living in war zones. They don't give a shit that happiness is always the case. It has nothing to do with the reality of things. Im addicted to drugs with 200 dollars to my name, happiness already being the case is completely meaningless to me. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 10, 2023 Author Share Posted July 10, 2023 How can there be equanimity right now? How can there be no suffering right now? It's all nonsense. The truth is that enlightenment is conditional. If enlightenment was unconditional then we'd already be aware of the truth now. A fat guy eating McDonalds everyday and smoking crack has a very low chance of sustaining the unveiled reality. the truth is that diet and lifestyle are very important conditions for the awakening process. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 10, 2023 Author Share Posted July 10, 2023 I find that I tend to go back and forth between enlightenment and unenlightenment and im so fucking tired of it, it's getting so old and boring. I don't wanna be a non dual missionary. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 10, 2023 Author Share Posted July 10, 2023 I am excited for the fast, it's gonna be great to feel the stomach healing and alot of emotional stuff coming up and out. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted July 13, 2023 Author Share Posted July 13, 2023 I will be leaving the forum soon. There isn't any other option right now. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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