Transmutation Journal

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Last time I stopped pmo for nearly 3 weeks, I was cleaning my room/bathroom regularly, felt more excitement and passion got life, and felt stronger. 

 

It's come to my attention that immediately after orgasming to porn there's a physiological response, the entire system feels dull and burnt out. 

 

Like today I didn't watch porn for the majority of the day and was at a 6/10 mood wise. Then I pmo'd and now I feel like I'm at 2/10. Nearly touching suicidal thoughts.

 

I refuse to be a victim, I will not give up! 

 

I can do this! 

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Let's go!!!! Day 1, going smoothly, feeling tired asf though. 

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It's day 2! Going strong, feeling better.

 

Had too much caffeine last night and freaked out on the forum. Today I had 1/2 teaspoon of matcha and I'm feeling awesome. 

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I find that transmitting this energy lies in just doing things I wanna do. Like reading a book, going for a walk, eating a nice meal. 

 

It's quite easy, all I gotta do when the energy gets intense is participate in a different task that will take my mind off of sex. Easy!

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I'm feeling better already in these 2 days. No longer having crusty socks, no longer feeling dirty talking to people knowing the monstrous amounts of **** I busted earlier. Life's good.

 

I think weight lifting and stretching can help a lot too. I also plan on going on another shroom trip in the near future. Shrooms are so fun! Especially at a moderate dose.

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My energy levels are increasing! It's feeling easier to do chores.

 

I looked at my laundry machine this morning and for the first time in months feel okay with doing laundry.