Mike

What else do you expect? Proper diet and movement (be it yoga, jogging, strength training, or whatever works for you) are the two most important things. I work in science and the moment one of the two gets off track I'm incapable of doing my job at a level I expect myself to.

I'm in an odd place. Where I see through everything going in circles, being free to choose any action I want, I face a realisation that I have all the time in the World. Which is really freeing. And at the same time, it's impossible to stop it - I simply see it pass away with every second. I set goals I'm passionate about, but at the same time, I know they don't matter. And there's nothing wrong with it. It's nice to be a part of a lovely community and share my life with them. But I'll never be able to see life from their perspective anymore. I no longer see anyone as separate from myself and it makes it even weirder in a way. At the same time I don't feel like it's possible for me to abandon this way of living - besides - there's nothing else I'd rather do anyway. It's just really difficult not to laugh sometimes. Achieving every challenge I set for myself, still at a young age, I suddenly reach a point when I made a full circle right to myself. Instead of chasing everything around me - all there was to do was sit down and turn in the opposite direction. And happiness is such a natural state of being - how come I tend to forget that? Oh well. Sleep tight.

So, I just need a place to write random stuff at the end of the day - for a better sleep - might as well do it here.

You kinda get born with the desire for sex, and it stops at some point when you die. Why fight it? Why is it stopping you from happiness?