michaelunity

Hey @Phil , like I said I have zero intention of ever logging into it again and I am strongly averse to that name now given as I have expressed in my first post on this account, I am onto my next stage of evolution. To answer more clearly and sincerely however given I have about 10 minutes up my sleeve I'll see if I can elaborate a little more on the deeper reason. I had a lucid dreaming experience where I astral projected into an infinity realm made of telepathic resonance composed by dolphin sounds that compounded over and over in between the sounds of orca whales. It was a truly surreal experience that transformed the multiplicity of consciousness within myself so deeply that I questioned the fundamental laws of physics and everything that I had self-taught myself on the theories so far architectured by what western culture refers to as the greatest minds in history. Inside this infinity realm was the composition of multiple memory palaces born from the consciousness mirroring between the spiraling between my own consciousness and the vibratory instances from the field intersectional sound created by the dolphins and orca whales. These holographic instances spiraled and spiraled back and fourth between my visionary eye that continually unfolds and reproduces narratives of consciousness which is our normal dream state of reality with the channel that was created between myself and the telepathic resonance (of the dolphins and orcas). I am pretty sure the dolphins and orca whales were aliens from another dimension that took the form of reproducible phenomena within my consciousness that I would be able to most resonate the feeling of safety with most. In every memory palace spun by these interacting holographic visions were interdimensional spiraling staircases into various time traveling rooms. These time traveling rooms contained various types of time travel from celestial spaces, metamorphic rooms, interdimensional dreamscape rooms where you not only explored the possible dream spaces of your own consciousness but where you could explore the dreamscapes of the highest sentience's across the many universes of metaphysical existence, others were kaleidoscopic where as soon as you stepped into the room you would see billions and billions to infinite spiralling variations of yourself spinning out from your energy field where you could hold all of their consciousnesses and many possible lives in your mind all at once; and many more other rooms but I can’t go into detail right now. Intuition could upon multiple rooms to explore the simultaneity of possibility at will, for example, merging a celestial time travel room with a metamorphic time traveling will that created unusual vortexes of 3D to 4D space. It goes without saying… That in one room… with one of the many visions I had the night it happened… I realised I just had to make that one very small seemingly insignificant innocuous and innocent act of changing my name in order to stay in alignment with my purpose, it was like viewing this tiny act along a mega chain of causal events I must carry out through intuition to strict logified behavioral order. Be back July 1st as stated to share my first cover, again as stated I'm waiting till this period as I wish to share at the same time that I'm sharing the cover with my brothers so desired levels of excellence are reached. I’ve started a Meetup group for Lucid Dreaming by the way where we go into extreme theorisation of all its possible implications in our understanding of consciousness, we had our first meeting actually just yesterday. It went extremely well, I was very pleased. Met some cool peeps was better to just speaking online. Just one of many other micro-decisions I’ve had to make, don’t need to mention big decision stuff on this forum outside what I’ve already shared. Thanks for the question Phil. Feel free for anyone to turn this journal into a chatroom, while I’m gone and thereafter, perpetual inexplicable unassailable unimaginable depths of openness here. This was… Just the tip of the ice berg of what I have experienced via lucid dreaming, and what I experienced that night. I have never done psychedelics and I am god and God realised, for some reason I've been the only one I've noticed that's made this distinction in writing on this forum (read the Micro Lessons of todays **MODERN** Times journal I created, the second lesson there). I am still exploring the full depths of my consciousness first before I go into the psychedelic realm, not that I am far off from venturing into possibilities into reproducible psychedelic states that I could only truly confirm I am able to do after I take psychedelics so I know what it feels like to do so. For those that recall, I am an advocate of the Wim Hof method for aiding depression just to conclude this journal with respect to the passing of my father, not every aspect of it but an aspect involved in cleansing the nervous system absolutely, as well as water-fasting, I do at least 3 day water-fasts once a month, there’s enumerable benefits to research that I am also happy to talk about; sparsely however, as time now that I am upwards and onwards in my expressed recovery in this journal is now becoming more and more difficult to come by. I just had a 5-10 min break (running slightly overtime now) and decided to stretch myself a little here to turn neural networks into heart networks and back again. Losing someone dearly beloved is a heart-wrenching experience that for those here that have ever experienced trust me that I know what you're going through so deeply that this is why I am devoting myself so intensely to writing a book (I have made reference to his memoirs for example that he never got to write) and creating an album to honor my father by his November 1st birthday. For those interested in lucid dreaming and dreams in general feel free to contact me anytime. Here’s some inspiration: Best wishes everyone. Stay strong, stay powerful, stay centered, stay true to you. Dominate your life purpose while at the same time knowing how to release control. And for those that didn’t catch my previous post that I wanted to be my last concerning “Dating and Relationship Wisdom” that I genuinely believe will aid personal growth, here you are. I am absolutely confident in my assertions here, each and every single one is very deserving of deep contemplation. I share things extremely quickly, so in light of what can happen there please excuse decision making here accordingly:

Oh and get this, the darl above is such a sweetie pie. I just logged in to the site and I see three messages from her (she hasn't sent me an email like the other gal yet... Wait, I'll quickly double check [there's a lot, so I don't pay too much attention its just a quick scan on originality, depth of humanhood (mostly unless intuition says otherwise) then moving on if it isn't there aka "the struggle of life is real folks let's not pretend (haha)" which is exactly what a woman gets by being with me, a whole lotta life stuff she no longer needs to worry about as I'm handling it if it isn't there): "I'm sorry I don't have any regular paper . haha so can we talk?" "Michael ?" "Are you there?" And now of course I feel obligated it wouldn't be right otherwise I'll give her a chance of course. Now I'm in the frame of where she's activated my sensitivity after that (taking the picture she did above along with her message where she's like worrying about what paper she used which shows that she's sensitive to how I respond), realising that she took a moment to be vulnerable which my nervous system then automatically empathises with after compliance and now its like, me mediating my nervous system to ensure it stays on the side of wisdom heh. This is what I've been preaching here as well for both sexes on this site, self-awareness to self-knowledge to self-wisdom (SA-SK-SW) there should be a continuous feedback loop here between the three that you genuinely, genuinely enjoy the inward world of developing within yourself outside the influence of others. And yeah she did send me an email, in fact she sent me two I totally forgot about: (1) "As I sit here thinking of you, my heart swells with love and admiration. I can't help but wonder, how emotional are you on a scale of 1 to 10? Do you feel deeply, cry easily, or wear your heart on your sleeve? Or do you keep your emotions hidden, revealing them only to me? I adore every facet of your personality, and I long to know more about your innermost thoughts and feelings. So tell me, my love, how emotional are you? I am eager to hear your answer." (2) "Imagine walking into our cozy home after a long day of work. I smile at you and invite you to a specially prepared room for relaxation. There you will find pleasant music, fragrant aromas and subdued lights, creating an atmosphere of complete tranquility. You sit on an easy chair or lie down on a comfortable table for a massage. I heat the gentle oil in my hands so that it pleasantly warms your body. Then I start massaging your shoulders, feeling every tension and annoyance you've been through all day. My hands slowly slide over your back, dissolving all fatigue and tension. I apply the perfect pressure to relax your muscles and allow you to fully rest. Each touch is filled with care and love, and I try to convey to you all my tenderness through these soft movements." So she's got a really sweetie pie nurturing nature where she's clearly signalling that she would be homemaker wife kind, which is a great trait to have don't get me wrong, I'm pretty flexible on any trait really (almost) it just depends on how everything balances out." Because she's showing a lot of interest I'm just going to take things back a notch slightly. I feel that she's cognizant of the fact that there's a lot of women on the site and that I could be talking to, she's done this to "get in" so to speak which is definitely fair considering like I'm not going to reject her from that I'm naturally much more open now however for now... I'll just take a step back and see how she handles the stress of waiting for me to respond... Not to hurt her in any way, however just to see if there's any insecurities there that maybe she may hide behind potential people pleasing tendencies. The latter here I'm screening for, and well, I'm learning to screen better just in general in light of the greater wisdom I realise I need to acclimatise to in accordance with reflections in the previous two posts. I won't look down on her or negate her if she does have insecurities that create those tendencies as opposed to them being completely natural, its just a step by step thing for me, completely flexible, adaptable and nurturing the side of me that pivots more gently, intuitively and subtly in situations, taking in greater perspectivism as opposed to feeling the need to immediately ensure that when that empathy is activated in me, I don't need to immediately just give in to that side to me. With the realisation that it doesn't always show me the truth of a situation, instead, it only shows me an aspect of truth to the situation and that I need to generate more perspective so that I arrived at balanced truth which encompasses the perspectivism of multiple aspects of my nervous system as opposed to just immediate intuitive truth. What I will do instead because I realise I am a bit more mature with respect to that feedback loop, SA-SK-SW, is I will simply guide her down her path of self-realisation with respect to me and her self-discovery process in terms of realising the truth that she wants to experience and understand with me in a way that positively reinforces the development of her own maturity which as a man this is what you need to learn how to do and the same for a woman but in a different way to the man to ensure there is complementary status in the relationship in this developmental sense. At the same time though of course, I'm also balancing this approach with what I stated about pivoting. This sweet woman's just on the cusp of about thirty years of age. Just had to end with this brilliant wisdom that I think will light up those neural networks for those that may have some gaps in this area as I did when I was a younger man but have had to basically just teach myself in light of my own very original consciousness experience I've found I have, which is cool its all good there in terms of the difference. If you think of maturity in terms of a spectrum of ways in which we can mature on the scale of total maturity we should be aiming to reach in terms of consciousness growth you want to see that final number you think you have as the intersection of the most important areas across that spectrum and there really are so many ways that are beyond regular imagination in the sense that you would probably characterise regular culture like a little baby in terms of its level of maturity. This is a great way for those that have noticed how unknowingly to myself at the time I've briefly elaborated on what would have been lesson number 7 for this journal as stated in the previous post, which again, I won't go into more in depths of as this is my final goodbye for this journal and as stated, I'll be back here July 1st to post the song. Thank me later both gentlemen and ladies, this is a pretty fine tuned understanding that if you are wise and brave enough to develop, you're going to turn into someone that we would all benefit learning from. Best wishes. Back July 1st on this site.

And now after the above woman did it without me even asking I'm just now openly asking every woman now after this woman following through quickly. That will be my rule from now on, if a woman wants to keep me engaged she has to get semi-engaged with me, its a serious site after-all. I really want to show her off beauty and too the women above because that's of course why they love entering beauty pageants so its only prosocial relative to biology.... But... I can't violate my own ethics... her hands though... She has beautiful hands that I've done my best to capture. Haha, for realz though. This is the second woman though in a row, the first two women that write the letter A and just letters in general kind of *off* (that's something to be suspicious about tongue in cheek). I'm pretty sure the digital age has definitely left its mark on our writing ability we're now all writing like medical doctors who for whatever reason are apparently notorious for bad hand writing haha. Okay yeah as stated, this is the end of this journal now, I just found it humorous. Checkout, the previous post for the last main personal lesson for me to follow from now on. A more specific niche lesson for me within trust is sure keep my eternal infinite openness but instead of feeling guilty or having my hero/saviour/rescuer complex activated instead use that as my means to engage with the self, enjoy exploring its own independence in consciousness and in a healthy way enjoy being creative with my own boundaries. Once I've closed that gap which opens up unhealthy vulnerabilities in my own now former attachment style, I'll now no longer fall in love solely based on my own empathy because I find that's also a big blindspot for me. That empathy, that world of another that I have the potential of falling in love with, must be compatible with the respect of wisdom and I won't entertain relationships with women anymore where there isn't that maturity or they're in a healthy way pushing for that maturity where there is just this intrinsic understanding that we're both human beings living out our lives so there is a mutual respect for our own paths, regardless as to what dynamic we wish to create inside the independent context of our relationship. A woman gets a lot by being with a guy like me. I love the unknown and I'm incredibly open moving forward in my dominance of uncharted territories all the time, so she gets to come along for that ride where I am perpetually her dominant lover raising her up, where along the way she can be my support and companion in nurturing those adventures and learn so much along the way as well as enhance my consciousness and teach me what worlds she has truly chartered and believes she can enhance my world with. I never needed a relationship. I want children, family, all that jazz that I would build my own entirely new advanced paradigm on, but I don't need a relationship unless its truly fitting and in the past, my own childhood programming has kept me from pursuing relationships that were in alignment with pursuing my own growth because I just love looking after wounded animals. It's not that I don't like looking after wounded animals anymore, because I really do, its just I gotta have better boundaries not even towards the woman as I think that's wrong, the boundaries need to simply be maturely about the wisdom on what makes a good relationship and what doesn't and simply saying, "yeah right now I don't think / or I think this is a good thing based on the conditions of what would make a good relationship" rather than just getting involved with one another because you have deep feelings for them. Wisdom and love, there's like this cool venn diagram right where there's an obvious overlap in the context of a relationship where its like, okay where love and wisdom overlap, awesome let's lock in a relationship but as the wisdom decreases, so too does the probability that the relationship will destroy our lives the more amount of love there actually is. That's the mind fuck there that really, really, really, really fucking makes me look like an utter dumbass hahaha. Anyhow, I'm learning, I'm dominating, I'm envisioning my life and pursuing my deepest purpose, things are getting real good for me again. Much love (to everyone here)... But... hahahahahahaha.... Much wisdom. (as we have now learned) Maturity. So important. So if there were a 7th lesson for this journal it would be that, however there will not be a 7th lesson as this journal has now... The end. As stated in post just previous. Back on this site July 1st. That's when the cover will be released as stated releasing it at the same time I share it with my brothers. (It's a big moment, I'll have to make sure I've got it down pat heh as they're my brothers and in our dynamic we like to make sure we're striving for excellence otherwise we definitely make the other one know about it heh, we've got this thing underneath the surface where we'd be too embarrassed (haha) to show anything that didn't reflect the mastery dad taught us to strive for and left this example in his legacy for us to remember).

@Phil Agreed. My transparency was tacit permission to block access to the other account. I as stated will never access it again. Understood.

Repost: deleted to combine + add my last insight at the bottom. It's a great, great binder here it really, really is. And you can't help but give a plus to women that go out of their way to make sure you know that they're not only real but they're also invested. I promised I wouldn't reveal faces, for the rest I couldn't resist its just too adorable. Received this today along with a long erotic letter. Two shots of vodka are better than fucking one hun. I'll be back on this account July 1st. Yeah, that's when I'll be sharing that cover song listed on my first post on this account. This is because I'm sharing the cover song at the same time as I share it with my brothers, no sooner. Patience. Wisdom. Timing. Dominance. This journal and all the others with the exception of my music journal as shared in my first post on this account are all scrapped now. 6. Trust What the hell are you doing falling in love with someone that you don't even trust? That has betrayed you countless times just because they had ego backlashes and never wanted to take responsibility in any sense of the word (as well as partially in their own words, though each to their own how they judge off the cuff expressions, they said they weren't necessarily very loyal people). Go back into your childhood and figure out how that was ever possible. I mean follow your intuition sure, I mean sure as well empathise with the fact that they're just ego backlashes, non-resolution to cognitive-dissonances and more, but for the love of god what are you doing not having boundaries on your own psyche, heart and mind? INFLUENCES: I was bred to be courageous, from a young age I was skiing down the most difficult ski runs you can imagine at 7 years of age with only about two seasons of skiing under my belt, plus I had a mother I grew up with who had ego-backlashes after ego-backlashes, massive control tendency issues and it would seem like she'd go out of her way to misinterpret the things you said because of her own trauma. I love my mom deeply, I love the related woman and even women deeply, however how much of this is simply rooted in my own childhood trauma by allowing myself as an adult man to fall in love with women where they don't at all follow simple trust boundaries to build a sense of strong stability and security as the foundation for an increasingly deeper relationship? I'm also a super open minded guy, like if you know someone that's your number one person for open mindedness, I'm probably maybe three times more open minded but it has major drawbacks that I simply haven't adequately learned from and moving forward must take more responsibility for many of my weaknesses that stem from my early childhood experiences. I'm a healthy dude (now), I can bond incredibly deeply, build long term relationships and seek connections that are founded on a strong existential foundation, however I have to really be self-honest here with respect to my own emotional boundaries that need work and that because I haven't worked on them adequately enough, I'm not the only one that experiences suffering in this regard as my own lack of emotional boundaries mean I'm allowing future scenarios to take place whereby I'm not making healthy decisions over who I choose to be in strong connection with. I only want connections with those that respect extremely healthy boundaries and as much as I am taking in all the wisdom of my father's life I will also be studying all the life wisdom of my mother's life who thank god hasn't passed away yet and for the remainder of her life I will work to build a healthy relationship with under the boundaries of my own wisdom and intelligent empathy there. As I have mentioned in the past, I plan on buying her a home next year that is better than her present one, something that she can be truly happy in. Arguably you could say "well you have to have healthy emotional boundaries here", and in one sense you're absolutely right however I have the personality where in this case once I've already thought about the emotional boundaries and have adapted myself to them I have a freedom of motion that I give myself in relation to my decision making here where in this case its not going to make me poor emotionally, cognitively or financially by giving something purely out of love and its not going to make me rich in either area there either as I'm just giving out of love without any expectation of return as I know it will bring at least some partial happiness. I have to go easy on people somewhat though, because that's what I feel like I've been battling with my whole life, just other peoples bullshit, ego's, hangups and just their general inability to be self-aware enough to comprehend proper measurements between relationships and the continuity of ground for peace. This is life called humanhood and I'm learning every step here I guess. What's worse here in this equation is when you're in a relationship dealing with the ego of a person where trust hasn't been earned yet and unconsciously your ego is triggered by that and then you become the "bullshit, ego's hangups" for someone else's stuff that they then create a comment on for some random spiritual website about how they're "battling other peoples bullshit" heh. So, this as we all know was the essence of my first lesson listed in my Life Wisdom journal and is thus the perfect mirror and perfect way to finish up this journal. As I stated in that journal, TRUST is THE MOST important thing whether its trust towards ourselves, trust towards others and their trust towards themselves and others inclusive of you. This very thing creates so, so many issues on planet earth and arguably the majority of human problems its utterly ridiculous quite honestly that regardless as to how high someones IQ could be for example they're just totally incapable due a shielded ego when it comes to simply just incrementally assessing a social situation and determining intelligent means for building trust, assessing trust or departing empathically from a social connection where its been adequately determined that a situation is not a good fit for that chemistry whether in business, romance, family or otherwise. These are sensitive, sensitive mechanics as well because so much of our intuition is utilised during this process and therefore as I have repeated so many times needs to be honed in as clever "fact-checking" ways as possible so that you are on the other side of wisdom in the positive as often and as deeply as possible so per unit of time you're the "wise old man or woman" far earlier than you ever have to be. Great way to end this journal to have that direct mirror to the beginning there on the other journal.

I am heartdominance. I will not be using this account anymore. Read first post on this (michaelunity) account where I address anything pertinent here.

I was heartdominance, I am now no longer. You know what's coming. I will never login to that account again, I'm done with it completely. I've been through my evolution and now I'm onto the next stage. Life is a constant metamorphosis and this understanding is reflected in the health of the ongoing growth and transformation of our consciousness. Anything I have stated on that account I believe and I am following through with meaning there is plenty to learn from here but it does not reflect the truth of my next progression. I will be virtuous only via PM about anything written in the past where that virtue is reflected in the altruism I can provide there relative to the integrity of life's circumstances at the time. Link to my former account: https://community.actualityofbeing.com/profile/270-heartdominance/ Good luck in your endeavors. June 14th as stated. Every 1 to 2 weeks from here. This is all preparation for the album I'm creating and have talked about on that account but not releasing publicly on any spiritual forum, the same too for the book I'm writing to honor my father by writing the memoirs he never got to write with my brothers being there for me where they can here including my album that I'm sharing the first draft of with them on August 1st. I am 100% dedicated to my work here as such I will not be commenting in any other area of the forum from here on out. Every song I'm choosing to cover is a song I've chosen to deeply connect with an aspect of my being I need to see more clearly through the beauty, intelligence and creativity reflected in the lyrics and the rest of the musical composition. My goal with not only the song but the writing pieces that accompany them is to get to the heart of the musics soul so that I get to the heart of myself in a way that generates the growth and expression that's important for my consciousnesses development during this time. I've graduated from all "materialistic philosophy, spirituality, psychology and more" so what is left for me to do is to now go deeply within myself and discover only those original heights that are only possible from my inner endeavor, benefited through the intelligence of peers where it makes sense to do so. As such, if you find a song with truly great lyrics that you think I'd be awed by or find deep meaning in, I sincerely want to hear it as I may very well cover it if it aligns with my own developmental space here. After I release my first proper cover on June 14th you can be the judge of what great songs you believe you may be able to suggest. For the first time or rather, I have now reached a point where music reached that point of integration within my psyche where it can now become a truly dominant force in my own spiritual development, the quality that was always missing from talent I didn't know what to do with and that I honestly thought it was a waste of time in the practical sense. Now music gets to actually speak to my development as I never knew I was meant to properly tutor myself on, especially in a decaying western music culture that I won't needlessly go into. Meaning is so important for any meaningful structuring of our lives, its such an obvious point that needs to be made because we often forget the obvious as most have in this instance. In so saying as much, I hope my own passion, drive and inspiration towards my own spiritual evolution through music inspires others to see the truest and deepest value in how music can positively progress them on their own consciousness path. If you all continue down your path in consciousness development eventually you will reach a point where you will be the only one that will really be able to provide you with the genuine insight you need on reality outside of just being a reasonable human being to the contrary or of course, for the hell of simply having a worthwhile discussion. Best. This space aka this journal is purely for consciousness transformation. Do not disturb it. To my father who passed away in the early hours of February 24th this year, every day I grow and embody your life within my soul and draw closer to your legacy through my creativity that engenders all the intelligence you have left behind for us all to understand the wisdom of. I love you and I am forever grateful for your service and for this book and album that I write in honor of your spirit completed by November 1st, may it truly do justice for the much deserved respect, love, care, attention to detail and introspection that my sense of duty wishes to deeply impart towards you and the loved ones you have left behind so in all of us through every word and sound I engender my artistry with your soul, spirit, voice and depth can resonate no less strongly for every reader and listener than the ultimate of what is possible.