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Gianna can be depressed and I will watch. 

I feel her love as clouded, 

her desires distorted. 

 

Her heart blocked, and

her mind upside down. 

[How to let go of attachment (to thought, idea, desire).]

Where does fixation come from? Why can we not let go of desire? 

[How to let go of someone.]

I would love it if those who read this would share ways they have let go in the past. Either of someone or something. I am a bit depressed so may not respond, but I will be reading. Thank you in advance to those who offer their experiences. Love. 

[I want to understand boredom]

I heard that we get bored when we want to do something but "can't". For instance, a boy who wants to play outside but "can't" because it is raining, will sit inside 'bored.' So it comes from a fixation on wanting something that you already believe you can't have or do. Therefore, to let go of boredom is to let go/change the point of focus. 

[Ego As Energy Contraction]

Can you elaborate on what you  mean by self-contradiction? I like that. 

[Vibrational Beings]

I really like what @Orb wrote. 

 

@Alexander, if you go one step further by asking where the vibration is coming from it will also be a great practice. 

[Eye Contact]

That must feel really great, @Finitude.
Happy for you! 

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10.15.22

 

you don't think we should talk. 

well, I don't agree but you're gone.

 

it's been months and

I don't even know if you're alive. 

 

what do you think?

how do you feel?

 

did you stop loving me? 

 

I still brag about you to my friends. 

I still think about a life of us together. 

 

I would move to africa to be with you. 

 

it's not only my fault we're not together.

 

I needed more than you would give. 

 

so if that's not you is it right that we're not together? 

how do I let you go? 

 

how would I ever become interested in anyone else? 

 

I feel like you two years ago, 

when you gave up on people. 

 

you took the idea of 'relationship' with you when you left.

 

a friend told me he saw me on a dating app. 

I didn't realize I was on there, 

 

so I downloaded the app to log in and delete it.  

but right before I did, 

I saw a guy who looked just like you. 

 

I messaged him to get closer to you. 

at least he will message me back.

 

do you really want us to end? 

how are you okay with us ending? 

 

i guess my answers are in that question. 

 

you really are gone.

[One day it will all make sense..]

Armin, you've touched my heart more than you know. 

Makoa, you're truly a gift to this world. 

Charles, your being fills mine with joy.  

 

🖤 

[One day it will all make sense..]

@Mandy ❤️

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10.3.22 – i can't stop hating myself and I don't know why...

 

self hate has spread like wildfire within me

it is so pervasive

you can find it in every thought 

 

it leaves me feeling as if everything is wrong

 

feeling bad, is wrong

feeling good, is wrong 

 

if I am with you, that's wrong

if I am I'm not, that's wrong 

 

all I give myself is rejection 

 

i can't help myself because i am stuck hating myself 

this demon has made me my only friend 

 

[One day it will all make sense..]

 

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🌹,

john powell 

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@Faith hehehe, so true. 

Thank you! 🌺

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4.29.22

 

One day it will all make sense.
At least that’s what I tell myself. 
I’m happy to be here.