ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 Selfish to an extent, yes, but I honestly empathise with your pain too. I honestly want to hear you out too. I honestly want to do what I can do to make things right. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 Should it be completely your call? I think so. I think I should let you decide, without my influence. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I know I feel much better and stronger because I know you're sleeping in our bedroom. And also because I've been eating well and resting a lot. But point is, I know that I'd still feel a lot more pain as soon as you'd step out the door again, never to come back. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I am in love with you. That I have no doubt about. But it seems a lot to me like you need time away from me to truly heal and live again. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I am sure we would both heal fast, on our own. Together... I can't say it with such conviction. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I am also terrified of giving this another go. It's not just you. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 And it's also scary to think of never seeing you again. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 So which one will it be? Left or right? This or that? Together or apart? You think this is all just fun and games? You think this is all just a dream, an illusion? You know nothing. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 Call me when you are able to commit to a relationship and devote your heart to someone this fucking deeply, mkay, thanks. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 That's right. I am not only more enlightened than you are, I also have a much, much bigger heart than you all. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 My mind is infinite, we all know that already. Ask Leo and his crowd if you don't believe me. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 These jokes are half decent. I can joke with a broken heart. I'm awesome. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 And you're so very awesome too. Thank you so much again, for this entire experience, for this chance to talk to you. I love you so very much. I wish nothing but the best to you. And I'm not even saying goodbye. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 I fought a thousand battles, some I lost, some I won... I'm sure there's a few more to come. But for the time being... I'm done fighting. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 I'm done fighting you, I'm done fighting myself. I am not saying I should have never fought. I am proud I've proven to myself what I had to prove. But it's enough now. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 Not enough in a sense that it must be stopped... Rather, enough in a sense that it is simply just enough. I see no more reason to rage against anything. Not too seriously at least. Let's see if it lasts. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 I feel on track, I feel my own. I feel courageous and strong. I feel love for myself and the ways in which I move and speak. I don't feel like I lost myself in this and now I have to find myself again. You might feel a bit more like that, but maybe not even. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 Thank you for sharing space with me, and making a nice environment, in which I was able to create this beautiful piece of art, that means to me everything. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 You are so appreciated and so loved. You always were. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 9 Author Share Posted July 9 Just keep rocking. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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