ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I know these words by heart. I must have sung them a hundred times, at least. But now I sing them to you, only. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 Are you in or are you out? The words are stones in my mouth Hush, little baby, don't you cry Truth comes down, strikes me in the eye Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 Turning seasons within Brand new nails across my skin But who am I to imply that I was found? Then I found you in the white Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 To overcome this, I become one with The quiet cold of late November If you don't see, I'll remain unseen Until there's time to be remembered Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 So I had a green light I was lost in city lights Not so far from a try This is not our last goodbye Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 So I found you, found a way all through The quiet cold of inner darkness Now that you're here, it becomes so clear I have waited for you always Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 Beautiful right? Nothing quite like it. Here's more. Because I love you so. It's all yours. Feel it. Perhaps there strike home even more. It is July, after all. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 You come clean Waves collide now Defenseless numb arms And no voice of reason Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 So how come you invited me too? You knew I wanted you You glide above Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 So this night belongs to you I know this isn't through Are you dead to love? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I see the bright lights It's the month of July It's violent here Why have you left me? If only you could stay And keep me in It's violent here Why did you run from me? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 If you thought for a moment that this about anything else but love, I suggest you read this entire journal carefully, at least 3 more times. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 We interacted a lot today. It was lovely. I might have said a few words too many, but I definitely mostly said all the right words. And words mean nothing. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 She checked the apartment. She loved it. She says she can really envision herself starting a life there. I cannot be too selfish, no matter how much I want her. She should do what's best for her. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 It's one of those "if you love her let her go" kind of a situations, I think. Maybe I'm wrong. Let's not get ahead of ourselves too much. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I suppose tomorrow is some kind of a decision day. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 See how respectful of time and boundaries we are here? All that imaginary stuff? Yeah. It's fucking important. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I thought you so many lessons so far, I stopped counting long ago. And I wasn't even trying, really. I was just doing me. Or undoing me. However you like. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I am so incredibly grateful that I got a chance to have this big talk with you today, to say that I am sorry and that I love you. I know that too is selfishness. I could not stand the idea of ending it the way it seemed at first. Please forgive me. I cannot get out of my way. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 8 Author Share Posted July 8 I feel so much lighter. My heart is still aching, but I also feel at peace. I am somewhat redeemed, if you will. I reclaimed a good portion of my dignity and self respect back. I do not think of myself that I'm the biggest jerk in the universe anymore. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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