ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I ate well at work today. But I am back to having no appetite as of now. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Thank you for at least leaving my messages on seen though. It lets me know you are alive and well. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 This girlfriend that you're with, is a terrible influence on you. I know you know that. But you like the fun. I am quite frankly terrified of what you two are up to these days. But then I also have moments when I see it all as something innocent. Whatever it is, I understand you want it and need it. And I can respect that. But am I scared shitless of hearing the details? You bet. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I can see myself accepting it as just something that you needed and never raising a question about it. Maybe it would eat me up on the inside, maybe not. But I can see myself doing it. I'd do it for you, sugar. Because I love you. For us. Because I love us. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 And of course I also wouldn't. Because why the fuck would I torture myself trying to accept something that makes me wanna throw up and rip out my hair? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Is that another ultimatum now? Am I willing to get back together, only if you didn't do something terribly nasty and crazy while you were away? I guess so. Too bad I would also think you're lying about what you did. I guess I'd have to go by feel. Does it feel true? Look true? Smell true? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Definitely getting way ahead of myself and everything, and that is not an accident or a mistake. It's for reason and on purpose. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I must say, it's fucking weird that the more I'm describing these bad traits of yours that I ultimately don't want to be around, the more I want to have you back here to discuss everything, forever. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Super addictive stuff, yes. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 So stimulating. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 All kinds of conflicts and contradictions here. I can almost see all of them. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I can't fucking tell if I want you or not. And I'm pretty fucking sure you're in the same spot too. The fuck do we do now? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 We wait a bit longer, I guess.. Awesome. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 It's ok. I don't have to decide anything just yet. And neither do you. Let's just try to relax. Both of us in our own way. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I will shave and take a shower soon and try to cook myself something too. Some stretching and a short workout before that would be very nice too. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Two super busy all day shifts ahead of me. I'm sure it will be fun. Thankfully, I have enough time in between to get the rest I need. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 She called! Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 She's super tired and didn't want to discuss anything about us at all. She only asked if she can come home to rest and not be bothered. I said I would leave the backdoor open and the bedroom is hers tonight. I'll sleep on the couch. Let's see what happens. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Key words: silence. space. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 The plot is twisting too fast and too hard! Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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