ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 If nothing else, I will send you the link of this journal and you will read all these thoughts, sooner or later. I am very glad you stayed out of it so far. It will be a treat. God I hope it happens. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I fantasize about it hard right now. But I know that very soon it might not even arise in my mind anymore. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I would love for you to know my thoughts, intimately. To read everything here. But don't you think I don't see just how incredibly selfish of me that is. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I want you to see me, understand me, so desperately. I would read your journal if it was public. I'm pretty sure I would. Maybe not. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Maybe it's the last thing you want and need. Maybe it's precisely what you want and need. You decide. But the link is coming your way, sooner or later. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 When will you finally see truth and nothing but the truth here? When will you finally get that it's all about truth? All about love? All about you and me. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Maybe a bit more me than you though. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Truth. Honesty. Integrity. Respect. Wisdom. Passion. Compassion. Humor. Excitement. Need I go on...? I am all of that, and more. It's all here, black on white. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 And now I am going to water the zen garden. Again on my own. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 The dogs are waiting by the door for you to come out, btw. It's heart breaking and adorable. I let them in, they looked for you in confusion, I kept telling them you're gone, in a gentle voice. Goddamnit. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Now I have to water the garden with tears in my eyes. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Got distracted, ended up watering it with frustration instead of tears. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 We might have an issue with the car that you took off with. You crashed my car and then bought yourself a new one, and that's fine, but it's still registered to my name. And I cannot unregister it without the number plates, that are on the car. Furthermore, you also left the registration card at home, so you are already risking driving this way. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I know you are expecting me to just leave it under my name. But you don't know yet that I'm planning on moving out of the country soon. And again, even if it was left under my name, you cant drive without documents. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 We must talk at least about the car. Or else I might have do a police report or some other nonsense. I hope you come to your senses soon and we will talk. But I'll let you be now for a few days. I'll let you do your thing unbothered. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 There is tension but I am breathing surprisingly well. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 When I imagine you being all reckless and going all crazy party animal mode, while I'm trying my best to breathe properly... I am absolutely sure I don't want you back. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I know this is out of spite. You are really trying to solidify this, aren't you? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 Until Wednesday. That's the time I'm willing to wait for you to talk. From then on, I'm closed off to any possibility of us getting back together. If you don't reach out, from Wednesday on, I am 100% committed to moving to Amsterdam. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 5 Author Share Posted July 5 I can do this. I can commit to 5 days of silence. I sent only two short texts so far. I wasn't pushy at all. But I'm taking even more steps back now. No text from me until Wednesday. It's all up to you. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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