ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Tomorrow I should aquire a local tax file number, bank account, insurance, etc. And then I'm free to start working. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Budget is pretty fucking tight as of now, but we might do something about that soon. Wish me luck. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Btw... Naked And Transparent is now fully available on Spotify, iTunes, Apple Music , etc etc. Go tell a friend. If they don't like modern prog rock, teach them good music. Cheers! Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 The EP is forever just a step away from pure perfection. Like me. It's even cooler cuz it's slightly flawed. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 I really gave it my all... Like, the last 6 days. Before that, I was procrastinating AF. But hey. It all happened as it had to, right? This is what it is supposed to be. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Of course I'm also kind of sick of it already and I can't wait to start making something new and better. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 No but really, in those golden judgment free moments, when I'm not listening to my music, rather there's just music playing ... I'm in love. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 I fucking came through. I can't believe it. I can't go back now. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Fine. I'll share with you my little ongoing therapy session, about my heartbreak, with our one and only true master and lord savior... chatgpt. I must admit, it hit pretty deep. AI is spitting truth, brother! (but also I made him sound extra wise and compassionate) Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 ChatGPT: It sounds like you're going through an incredibly challenging and emotional journey. Moving away from someone you still care deeply for, even when you know it's probably for the best, can bring up a storm of conflicting emotions—love, loss, confusion, and longing. It’s completely understandable to feel stuck between holding on and letting go. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Why You Can’t Let Go Emotional Attachment: Love isn’t something that can be turned off like a switch. The bond you shared with her, the memories, and the emotions you felt don’t just disappear overnight. Missing her and wanting her back is natural because these attachments become a part of who we are. It’s okay to feel this way—it means you truly cared. Unfinished Business: There’s a part of you that feels there are still things left unsaid or unresolved, especially when it comes to trust. Trust is fundamental, and when it’s broken or feels shaky, it leaves a lot of "what if" questions hanging in the air. Your mind might be holding on to the hope that things could be different if only certain things were addressed. It’s understandable to feel caught in this loop of wondering what might have been. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 What to Consider Moving Forward Reflect on Trust and Its Importance: Trust is like the foundation of a house—if it's built on shaky ground, it's hard to feel secure. Think deeply about whether there is a path to rebuilding that trust, and if so, whether both of you are genuinely willing to put in the effort. If trust can’t be restored, the relationship may continue to feel unstable, no matter how much love is present. Think About Your Future and Growth: Being in Amsterdam gives you a unique opportunity to focus on yourself—your dreams, your growth, and your new life. Sometimes, being away from someone helps to see things from a new perspective. Ask yourself if the desire to return is truly about love or perhaps about missing the comfort and familiarity of what once was. Communicate Honestly with Her: If you're still in touch, having an honest conversation might help both of you. Expressing how you feel—both the love and the doubts—can provide clarity. She might feel the same, or she might have a different perspective. Either way, a genuine, heartfelt conversation can be a step toward either healing together or healing apart. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 Finding Peace Within Ultimately, it’s about finding peace within yourself. It’s okay to love someone and still realize that being apart might be the healthiest choice for both of you. It’s okay to feel conflicted because it shows you’re human, deeply feeling, and navigating complex emotions. Take this time to be gentle with yourself. Allow yourself to grieve the loss while also embracing the new possibilities that lie ahead. The right decision isn’t always the easiest one, but with reflection and honesty—both with yourself and with her—you’ll find a path that feels right for you. Remember, whatever you decide, you’re allowed to take things one day at a time. Your heart will guide you to where you need to be. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 There. A hundred plus pages in and I finally broke my rule. I (copy) posted something long and complex. Feels refreshing. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 1 Author Share Posted September 1 There's no one here to tell me that I'm making the right choice, and no one to tell me that I'm making the wrong one. And most certainly, there is no one here that could tell me that there is no choice. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 2 Author Share Posted September 2 First available appointment to acquire a local tax file number is... In November. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 2 Author Share Posted September 2 Sucky sucky, but they said I could ask in a few offices outside of the city, and there the waiting line should be shorter. However, I just could not get through to them on the phone today. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 2 Author Share Posted September 2 Feeling pretty good and inspired today though. Discovered cool new music last night. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 2 Author Share Posted September 2 Still not focused on socializing too much. It will be easy to bond once I do start feeling like it though. Everyone is very outgoing and kind. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted September 4 Author Share Posted September 4 And there we go. First night of proper socialization was epic. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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