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  1. Good 

    You treat women like throw away objects.

    I saw your thread on actualized, you are not a very good person underneath it all, you are a self centered sort of introvert-esque kind of person.

     

    I feel so so so sorry for the women that run into you.  I really do.  I feel for them, because I have dealt with guys like you.

    You would legit be best off starting a journal away from it all.  Not on either forum, but nowhere at all, where no one witnesses you, or knows of you.

     

    As far as avoiding - I generally avoid most men, but I will occasionally do what I please.

  2. 17 minutes ago, Forza21 said:

     it's not easy to grasp it after years cultivating "dualistic" paradigms, but i do my best! So basically  "Observe the observer" as you see that even that can be let go off. This requires years of meditation practice, i assume, and it's kinda "high league" .🙂 

     

    1) Here mirror exercice was disscusted for those who are intrested. I assume you're suggesting the same thing ? :
     


    2) When asking "Are there other lenses?" are you implying anything different from in your video "Actuality Of Being"? Have anything changed since the recording? 

    "there are no restrictions or limitation as how many worlds or finite minds which can appear in the spheres"

    is there any diffrenece?

     


    I assume there is something like "subtle body" and it all belongs to "person".  When you no longer think you are this "separated person" i think you might look different on this topic.  I'm open to anything, since i don't know any different i just try to understand it. As i can.
     

    I don't deal with people telling me what to do in my spiritual path, sorry, you aren't my authority and never will be.

  3. You're weird around women...

    Maybe don't bother them anymore...?

    Like... what's up with this journaling around all these women you meet?

    Are we allowed to be honest here on this forum or no?

    Cause if not, I can peace out no problebo, but...

     

    You remind me of the pure narcissism that my ex would display, under the pretense of artistic ... improvement?

    But he was a moderate level artist who used his emotions wrongly, and thus the people around him...

    For the sake of mulling himself to oblivion...

    So... what are you even doing here, pretending to be a poetic spiritual... what, even...

     

    You're just like everyone else, you're not this artsy fartsy dude... it's an act.

    Are you going to get rid of that, or just carry over to here?

    Is that what everyone here is about?  

    Carrying over the same stuff?

    Been there, done that.

     

    Hope you like my "poem".  Grow up.

  4. No, not everyone is.  Some people like... live through their ego.

    They may be well meaning, but no enlightened.

    Not everybody speaks the truth.  They speak THEIR truth, but not THE Truth,

    There is a difference... where did you pick this up from that everyone was enlighened and speaks the truth, this doesn't sound like something that was thought through completely, but speaks like, "I just wanted to post something, so here's a thing everyone has heard before that isn't entirely accurate, although you "could" say it's true, but are you at the ability to describe why it is true?"

    By true comes from self reflection, and people's behaviour tells me that, no, some people are not enlightened - there has to be something put in place to decide what that is - murderers, rapists, ect - no they aren't.  If they were, universal Love would come through, and bad actions would have karmic consequences.  Which they do.
     

  5. Yes, there is - but that insight comes from my own personal journey.  Check out the books Seth Speaks by Jane Roberts, The Psychic Being by Sri Aurobindo and the Tibetan Book of the Dead along with the Law of One by Ra. 

     

    Books are friends, forums are frenemies, they won't give you the education you need to come to your own conclusion.  We can offer little bits of info here and there from our own perspective.

    Read... read a lot.  On spirituality.  As much as you can.  Meditate.  Be present and learn from the present moment.  Journal.  A lot.  This helps you get acquainted with your true self.

    Don't even listen to me.  No one here is right... but YOU.  Only your higher self, your true self, awareness God, whatever... can tell you what the truth is.

     

    We are all FOOLS here.  YOU know the truth.
    So find out if you believe or don't believe.  Even if I say it is true, don't trust it - just find what insights you can, and trust yourself.

     

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    I wanna hold the hand inside you
    I wanna take the breath that's true
    I look to you and I see nothing
    I look to you to see the truth

    You live your life, you go in shadows
    You'll come apart and you'll go black
    Some kind of night into your darkness
    Colors your eyes with what's not there

    Fade into you
    Strange you never knew
    Fade into you
    I think it's strange you never knew

    A stranger's light comes on slowly
    A stranger's heart is out of home
    You put your hands into your head
    A million smiles cover your heart

    Fade into you
    Strange you never knew
    Fade into you
    I think it's strange you never knew

    Fade into you
    Strange you never knew
    Fade into you
    I think it's strange you never knew
    I think it's strange you never knew

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    American Football - Fade into you

     

  7. 4 hours ago, ivankiss said:

    @Faith @Annie Thanks. It was really quite something. Made me realize; there are amazing and even highly conscious souls closer to me than I think... It's just that I'm so good at hiding. 

    You're welcome.  Why do you hide?

     

    Also, to stay on theme, I appreciate my mom for picking up my prescription today that was nice of her.

  8. 1 minute ago, Loop said:

    I feel solipsism is a trap that happens when one is attached to the idea of identity, possibly attempting to make everything about your identity, rather then realizing what identity is, thought. When you can clear away the belief structures and identity then you can expirence the Soul(s).

     

    Trying to build an identity is a survival strategy in today's world. Understandable that it is a very popular trap. 😄

    Yeah you know, I actually agree - because when I get into a solipsistic state I can manifest things more - or rather I notice things that coincide with my identity much more.  I've felt that state, where everyone and everything becomes "you" - but I was also at my most manic and in my worst place in life where the inner was spilling out into the outer, but not in a grounded way.  It felt like a bubble, for sure, and maybe it was just me experiencing my soul creating the physical senses, not sure...

    I also agree that having an identity is very helpful in today's world - not having one feels very "floaty" and unnatural - yet I remember what it was like as a child not to have any identity.

     

    But when I felt the souls - there was no identity - no mania, it felt very natural and loving.  Like I had returned home.

    I love that poem, it really resonates.

  9. 4 minutes ago, Aware Wolf said:

    "Human sacrifice, dogs and cats living together... MASS HYSTERIA!"

       -- Dr. Peter Venkman

    My dogs and cats live together pretty peacefully - not so sure about human sacrifice though, although it is a fascinating subject, you know Aztecs and all.  Mass hysteria would probably work, like if something was causing problems for most of the world and it was a danger that was imminent, either people would band together or destroy one another.

    2 minutes ago, Lester Retsel said:

    The only thing to do at this point is drop it and walk away.  There'll ALWAYS be more to say and express about anything you feel strongly about, nothing can be reduced and neatly tied up and put away.  Thats the annoying thing...you have to leave well enough alone even though you don't necessarily feel anyway resolved.  That's where I've landed. 

    I totally get that, and will end up leaving this particular convo pretty soon, as I've already expressed that what has been said has been said and it's probably time to move onto other things.  If not, this forum will devolve into just a place to talk shit about one person - when it should be used as a spiritual forum for individual and communal growth.

    I suppose I could take the first steps and just get on with it and make some relevant topics, journals, and whatnot - lead by example.

  10. Just now, Ges said:

     

    Step1: People need to stop worshiping authority.

    Step2: People need to start listening to reason.

    Step3: I'll be on Actulaized if you ever decide to come back there.

     

    Step 1 - Sounds very reasonable.  We are our own spiritual authorities, that's how it has to be.
    Step 2 - Reason is kind of up in the air because people have different definitions of what is reasonable and what isn't.
    Step 3 - You're leaving here?  Aww, well I'll cya around if you come back here - I'm planning on making a more organized journal here.  I can't go back there - I couldn't keep my cool and act decently and so this is what happens - I should start again here and let the people there feel comfortable in their own space, that sounds fair.  Like, I should have been banned for some of my behaviour, I'm self-banning because my attitude got all messed up and sometimes the responsible thing to do is to walk away.

    I wanna be in a place where I put my best self forward to start with and maintain that.  It's hard to do there for me for some reason, I always get triggered when I don't want to/mean to and that doesn't happen here or surprisingly on reddit.  I've been able to put my best self forward there, too, and just be of service and offer advice when I can and that's the best way to be.  The Actualized forum just has so many things that I don't agree with, people know each other so well that they've all gotten into fights with one another... you know?
    Maybe in two or three years if that place is even still around I might join with a new username and pick up where I left off - but I need more time, other people need more time - there needs to be improvement on my end and I think this place would be better suited for it.

  11. 5 hours ago, Loop said:

     

    I never really thought about it that way, to me it was always a co-creating, as in we are all the Source, Unity, Love. The Soul with its many souls, I am just as much the Dream as everyone else is. 

     

    During my NDE I was shown a place were souls come together, unite in body-less conciousness. That place I don't really see any different than what is Now. We all come together in Presence. We are all What Is. 

     

    I had to go threw a lot of Healing to understand what I went threw in my NDE, took up meditation, started reading more, and have done some psychedelics, and now the realizations are much more grounded then it was the few years after the NDE. I don't really feel done with the Healing, but have come a long way. The creative power of Love's Light is the greatest healer. 

     

    You'll find your way out of the perspectives you feel sucked into, after all it is just perspective, not the Love that Is. 

    Same here with my NDE.  I think the solipsists get stuck at feeling their own bubble, but don't know you can feel other bubbles, too, especially when you get close to death those souls will make themselves known.  It feels more like carbonation, a bunch of bubbles all moving towards a singularity, but all the souls are united in the Now.  We can reconnect to everyone through Now, it becomes like a siddhi.

  12. 1 minute ago, Lester Retsel said:

    Not by him specifically, but people who do the kinds of things he talks about doing(pickup etc) or have been taken in by charlatans like him to regret it later.  Yeah, I plan on focusing on magick going forward on my channel.  And related topics like tarot, Qabalah, astrology etc.

    That sounds right up my alley, I'll take a look.  Good luck with your future projects.

  13. 5 hours ago, ivankiss said:

    I'm still kinda shaking, it was so magical. Stuff like this rarely happens to me, if ever haha.

     

    Grateful beyond words.

     

    May she be blessed and may our paths cross again someday.

     

    Aww, you met a soul mate!  You'll meet again, all paths cross at some point.
    Might be someone from your soul family that you actually know very well who was sent to help you on your path.  I've met people like that before; it's like you've always known them but you just met.

     

    I appreciate people meeting soul mates, and learning from them and growing and feeling wonderful and grateful for their experiences.

  14. 8 minutes ago, Lester Retsel said:

    Yeah, I stand by what I've said but I've stopped doing those types of videos and I won't be anymore.  I understand what you're saying about the shadow.  For me, it helped me to know things I want to avoid if I'm going to be doing videos teaching things in the future, and people I've known have been hurt by people like him.  Its not a place I want to remain, but I felt the need to say the things I said.  Now it's time to balance it out.

    Cool, that's good to hear and I'm sorry that people you know have been hurt by him.
    What kinds of things do you want to teach?  I'd be interested in learning more about magick, different approaches to it and how it has helped/changed life.
     

  15. 1 hour ago, Lester Retsel said:

    I practice chaos magick specifically, I have several videos about my approach as well as videos on other things...I began my channel specifically to call out some if guras bs that really bothered me, and the truth is someone asked me to come and participate on this forum in this particular thread, im not really active on here otherwise.  Buy leave me a comment on the video if you like, we can maybe talk more, if you want, im probably not really gonna be active on this forum much.

    Nice!  I do, too - I tend to follow my intuition on what will work for me and what won't and it's usually pretty accurate.  I'll check your videos out; sorry to hear you won't be sticking around, I wish more people were interested in the paranormal and occult.  I'll leave you a message on one of your vids.

    Yeah, Leo probably could use a bit of calling out, to be one hundred percent honest, I had watched one of your vids like, a while ago and you made some really good points that can be hard to see as red flags when you're sitting in the middle of it - I just never really got into his work too much so I kind of just used his forum for shadow work and did my own thing; so I don't really have an fan mindset or anything.  He needs to professionalize his approach on his forum, and there's not much more to be said about that and I don't think the kind of people who frequent the forum there will tell him the truth - he seems to know he has some stuff to work on, and maybe the videos will help..

    It helped me, in the past I got trolled once and I just took their advice that they were trying to hurt me with and applied it.  And I had a spiritual awakening, because people that are oriented to see what is wrong in others can really see your worst side for sure, I've gotten into that as well in the past when I was heated about someone's behaviour - I'm actually here to work on that 'cause it's still ego even if you're right.  He probably does need to be called out, but the person to do it will probably have a shadow, just like I did, about that.
    When I did it, even if I was right in the moment, it felt wrong and dirty because I still have work to do, and I knew it came from my ego.  A part of me wanted to hurt the people I was calling out and a part of me really felt that it shouldn't be me, because of the position I was in - did I ever even have the right?  No, not really.
    I suppose that... I feel like calling him out could help.  It helped me when I was ego-stricken.  It always does; honesty and the right mirror can be a godsend in disguise.  But doing it to another - that's also a shadow on the part of the person calling the individual out.  I just wonder if it is worth the time?  It could be; some of his comments were really pretty bad.  But it pulls you down into the mud, too.  Been there, done that.

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  16. 1 minute ago, Lester Retsel said:

    Relax, I practice it too, did you see my video?  

    Nice, not yet, I've just been keeping up with the thread.   I know the kind of people you are talking about; people who don't use their intent properly but for ego-reasons and they get in over their head, because they don't work on the darker aspects of magickal practice - it turns into this one sided love and light process - or kids who practice black magick that don't know what they're getting into... or people who don't know the different terminology, ect, ect.  But it's part for the course, most of us are newbs.
    I'm relaxed, just smoking a bowl and enjoying writing.  Sometimes I am not relaxed, so I'll be honest about where I'm at.  I'm chill, but also wanting to discuss other things - and just don't want the thread to turn into a fingerpointing mess - it doesn't look good for introducing other people here if the most active thread is one dissing Leo - and if we just keep at it, like for days... weeks... what then?

    At some point there should be more things to discuss.

    And I don't wanna end up being a hypocrite by point out Leo's flaws, and then not working on my own stuff - in which case he is less flawed than I am - so I feel kinda dirty implying that there is something "wrong" or needs working on with anyone because I am so not perfect and so average that I don't have much of a leg to stand on.

     

    That's cool that you work with magick, though.  I'll certainly check out the video in a few.  ❤️ Not a lot of people in non-dual circles practice it, so I always feel a little out of the loop.  Cheers.

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