Alexander Posted October 28 Share Posted October 28 I suffer from schizoaffective disorder and I am unemployed but why not dream big.Here I will document my journey to 1 mil. This means I need to bring substantial value to society.It also means I need to learn new skills. I will also write about my other goals and desires here too. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Devin Posted October 28 Share Posted October 28 Just saw a quote or something the other day, went like ' people instead of focusing on what they want, they waste 90% of their time instead focusing on their current situation', I've found the implication of this statement to be true, try to focus on what you want more and less on your situation, things are so much easier than they appear to be from the outside, you look back and see all the wasted energy doubting, worrying, and being resentful or whatever. The way I look at things is that if it's truly what you want then it doesn't matter whether you can or will make it you still have to go for it. Looking back on things though, things are so much easier than they seem when on the outside, it makes me doubt every doubt. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 29 Author Share Posted October 29 Day 1 Today I didn't do much.Done all my chores. It's Sunday so I was just relaxing whole day.My friend proposed me to meditate for 2 to 3 hours but I can't do it.I will do 20 minutes and even that is long. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 30 Author Share Posted October 30 Day 2 Woken up at 5:30 AM .Been to psychiatrist .Took my medications from pharmacy.Today I will start my typing fast training.Hope it will took me one month of intensive training so that I can be freelancer and get those data entry jobs over the internet.That's my plan for now. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 30 Author Share Posted October 30 (edited) @the system made me Thank you.I love reading all your posts.We are both mentally ill but we can create life of our dreams.Yes we have to create something of value to society.I experienced enlightenment /feeling Infinite and in that state I got few insights. 1.Reality transforms to ourselves what you focus on reality will follow that. 2. Forgiveness.Forgive anyone who hurted you. 3.Be authentic 4.Allow people to be free without judgement Edited October 30 by Alexander Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 30 Author Share Posted October 30 Lesson 1 Words per minute 21.3 Accuracy 92.3% Not bad for my first lesson.This will be a challenge.I already see this will be hard to learn but I have all the time of this world since I am unemployed.Key is to be self employed my own boss. One step at the time lets first master this then I will learn new skill and offer it to the market. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 31 Author Share Posted October 31 Day 3 Today I woke up at 6:45 but then I continued to sleep until 9:30. I need to come up with morning and daily routine.I want to be done with my chores as fast as possible so I can have most of my day of to practice.Other then that I shaved my beard to give myself more professional look. I will start hitting the gym after I earn my first money that's how I will reward myself.I am slim despite being on antipsychotics. Regarding experiencing myself as Infinity I consider that as Enlightenment so there is no reason for me to seek it and that's for later phase on my life when I hit 60s 70s meanwhile I want to earn money and start family one day. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 31 Author Share Posted October 31 I improved my words per minute 25.7 But my accuracy fallen down to 91.6 I will try to practice 4 hours per day to start. I have 2 big addictions to beat and those are nicotine and caffeine .I will start tackling those very soon. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted October 31 Author Share Posted October 31 I've started lesson #2 and results are: Words per minute 37.9 Accuracy 94.7% on my first try. Lesson#1 from which previous results are from are using left hand and lesson #2 are right hand. There is huge difference between skill,speed and accuracy btw both of my hands.I am very right handed it seems. Tomorrow I will use my left hand for lunch lets train my right hemisphere of the brain because I will need it more than I ever thought. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 1 Author Share Posted November 1 Day 4 Woken up at 3:20 AM continued to sleep until 9:00 AM. Was busy whole day.Went to bank have taken my mother to doctor. Arrived home at 5:45 PM then proceeded to make dinner and it's 6:30 now.All my obligations are completed.Saw cute blackhaired woman at bus stop was thinking of approaching her but I didn't do it because there was to many people around.Tonight I will practice a bit.Having strong headache but it will pass. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 2 Author Share Posted November 2 (edited) Day 5 Today I woke up at 7:45 and again I woke up in the middle of the night. Medication I am using are: Olanzapine Carbamezapin Lorazepam Today my practising went well and I saw there is plenty of room for improvement my left hand reached 36 words per minute.I am happy with my progress so far what I am not happy about are my cigarette cravings during my practice.I need to beat nicotine addiction. Tomorrow I can't because I have to get up early and take my mother to a hospital.I need 5 free days without not many obligation to beat it.I guess I will sleep through all 5 days using lorazepam. Edited November 2 by Alexander Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 4 Author Share Posted November 4 Day 6 I know I am one day late with report. I taken my mother to hospital to get that biopsy report.She has lung cancer confirmed.Seeing that I will quit smoking too. Other than that I saw friend of mine and I gaved him my new phone number so that we can get in touch.We spoke about various topics and he offered me a job in bakery that he works for.I rejected the offer because of 6 days of work week. I didn't practiced yesterday because I felt down and not in mood.Today I will try but I must admit that it's boring and repetitive it will take a months probably until I learn.Still have to see what next skill I want to learn probably programming. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 4 Author Share Posted November 4 Day 7 Woken up at 7:45 AM.I done all my chores.Went to church with my mother.I am atheist so I find it funny.Later we went for shopping. I still have to prepare dinner and to practice my fast typing lessons.I am still at the lesson 1 I want to master it before starting lesson 2. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 5 Author Share Posted November 5 Woken up at 8:20 AM .Have done all my chores except cooking.I don't feel motivated for job hunt or to practising fast typing but I did practised my left hand and result is 94.9% accuracy and 29.8words per minute.My goal is to reach 50 words per minute at the end of it.It will take months for me to learn .In pauses I smoke or play chess.I distract myself all the time.It means I am not focused and that I am not enjoying my training.I am abusing dopamine which should be released when I complete a task not when I smoke. Every morning I try to quit for that day but I can't for now I am very weak minded.Wish I can remove that addiction because I don't like anything about smoking. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 6 Author Share Posted November 6 Woken up at 7:45AM. Finished all my chores. Done my left hand typing training and results are accuracy 95.6% and typing speed was 39.4 words per minute. Also reviewing Google certificates.I need to re educate myself.Finding remote job in tech industry would be cool. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 6 Author Share Posted November 6 So I started leson#2 which is home row right hand and for my first time practising it results are :accuracy 84.6% and 22.6 words per minute. I am feeling optimistic maybe it will not take months.I still have nicotine addiction to beat.I am taking small steps like one step at the time. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 7 Author Share Posted November 7 WOken up at 8:00 AM.Finished all my chores except cooking.Tried just now ,home row right hand and results are:accuracy 90% with 37.4words per minute.My right hand will be faster which is expected because I am right handed.Every lesson feels difficult at start but I get motivated more and more as time passes. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 7 Author Share Posted November 7 (edited) I just passed lesson #2 with following results: accuracy 98.4% words per minute 37.4 Now I am starting lesson #3 Both hands home row.For the first try I scored miserably accuracy 82.6% with just 12.2 words per minute Edited November 7 by Alexander Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 8 Author Share Posted November 8 Woken up at 9:50 AM .It' because I went to sleep very late.Finished all my chores.Time for me to practise lesson#3.I can't even reach 20 words per minute with both hands.So learning to type blindly will take some time.I am feeling frustrated.Still searching what business I can create. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alexander Posted November 9 Author Share Posted November 9 Woken at 9:45 AM .Pretty late .Because my meds I sleep more.Today I took took 2 hours nap .Finished my chores.Didn't practised today.I tried once just to don't get rusty and results are :accuracy 88.1% and 17.4words per minute.I know results are low but it's ok I know already it will take months until I learn it.Learning skills that will make me a professional data entry clerk.Tomorrow is day I will quit cigarettes I hope I will beat one and only addiction I have. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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