Annie Posted April 13, 2022 Share Posted April 13, 2022 (edited) I was Loba/Keyhole from actualized. I left because I just couldn't deal with the atmosphere of the place anymore. It was partially me, partially the forum. I burned bridges and so did others, and in the end I felt like it would be in my best interest to leave - I wanted to know if how I was feeling about it was all me or all the forum and I found it to be about 50-50 after taking a break, so I wanna work on my 50 here around people that I know - but maybe not so many people like on the forum there - because my awakening is a delicate process for me, a smaller community seems right up my alley. I want to work on being more helpful and plan to continue managing myself and doing the best I can, to improve my karma - needed a clean slate to work from. During the time gone, I found another forum and have been offering my services, giving the best answers that I can for where I am at. I sought out a psychiatrist and am working on getting a therapist soon. Still in med management. I quit drinking. I saved my dog from parvo, she almost died three times during the few weeks she was sick, but she pulled through. Had many more awakening experiences, once the feeling of having to follow another path was gone I was able to let go easier and had more personal insights. Leo if you read this, I don't mind being banned, I had my time there and now the time has changed... But it would be beneficial to keep your regs, so if you see other people here please leave their accounts alone, you can't decide for people what websites they go onto. Especially if you banned people who are friends with one another they will want to keep in touch and this is a nice way to do it without having to scroll past too much nonsense or trolling, you know? The forum just isn't what it used to be back in 2016-2019. It changed and just can't offer me what I need at this time; I spent too much time growing there, like building a launching pad for myself to see myself and now that I have seen my demons face to face, I need to work on them, but not where I left them - if that makes sense. Quote The lights were low enough, you guessed You swapped your conscience with your fathers medication Limped from Rome to Lawrenceville And on the way wrote out a self-made declaration And when you got to Pleasant Hill You forced the traffic to erase your family demons And made a pact with you and God If you don't move I swear to you I'm gonna make ya Do you need me? Do you need me? Do you need me? Do you need me? When the first officer arrived It happened to be the high school bully of your brother When you finally recognized You felt some guilt that you had even let him touch you Can you hear me? What's your name? You could not speak just laid amazed at all the damage And as the high school's letting out All the kids saying the same thing that they used to It's an alien It's an alien It's an alien It's an alien The lights are low enough, you guessed Hospital food, there's never enough medication The doctor asked about your ears You said your mom said you were made from a revelation The revelation never scares If you came from your drunken dad and a pair of scissors You just finally letting go? Did you mean to take out all those people with you? Didn't mean to Didn't mean to Didn't mean to Didn't mean to Oh I didn't mean to (Oh I didn't take the time to learn to let you go) Oh I didn't mean to (Never letting go) No I didn't mean to (Oh I didn't take the time to learn to let you go) Oh I didn't mean to (Never letting go) Time is here to take your last amendments and believe them on your own Time is here to take you by the hand and leave you there alone Time has come to take the last commandment and to carve it into stone Time has come to take you by the hand and leave you here alone Edited April 13, 2022 by Annie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faith Posted April 13, 2022 Share Posted April 13, 2022 @Annie Welcome to the forum!💙 You're a thought. Do you think a thought is going to occupy 'no thought'. The 'changeless' can be realized only when the ever-changing thought-flow stops. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted April 13, 2022 Share Posted April 13, 2022 @Annie ❤️ Youtube Channel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Annie Posted April 13, 2022 Share Posted April 13, 2022 1 hour ago, Mandy said: @Annie ❤️ 3 hours ago, Faith said: @Annie Welcome to the forum!💙 💕 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tarak Posted April 21, 2022 Share Posted April 21, 2022 (edited) I was Persipnei. Only posted on Actualized.org every few months, so nobody probably knows me. I visited that forum this morning for the first time in 4 months and was amazed by how that place changed. I saw incredible amounts of judgement and propaganda from Leo (the F happened to him?) and knew it wasn't a place for me anymore. Then I searched for Nahm and was so happy to see he started this new forum. Seeing forward to read your experiences and share mine. 🙏 Edited April 21, 2022 by Tarak English is hard :-) I don't claim any truth. I just share my personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faith Posted April 21, 2022 Share Posted April 21, 2022 @Tarak Welcome to the forum! 💙 You're a thought. Do you think a thought is going to occupy 'no thought'. The 'changeless' can be realized only when the ever-changing thought-flow stops. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
God Posted April 22, 2022 Share Posted April 22, 2022 You will never guess😉 Though I will say that Faith did ban me once🙂 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faith Posted April 22, 2022 Share Posted April 22, 2022 2 hours ago, God said: You will never guess😉 Though I will say that Faith did ban me once🙂 Interesting. Actually, you mean Ananta...or Anna1, because Faith hasn't banned anyone, yet. 😉 You're a thought. Do you think a thought is going to occupy 'no thought'. The 'changeless' can be realized only when the ever-changing thought-flow stops. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tarak Posted April 22, 2022 Share Posted April 22, 2022 4 hours ago, God said: You will never guess😉 Though I will say that Faith did ban me once🙂 Look at the username, it's clearly Leo 😁 I don't claim any truth. I just share my personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tarak Posted April 22, 2022 Share Posted April 22, 2022 41 minutes ago, DMT Elf said: I wonder if Leo has a sock on this forum... He's always watching.. 😳 He could be any one of us. 😨 Maybe it's me! 😱 🤣 Maybe he has, and that's OK. Maybe reading the "Leo-thread" gives him a much needed insight? 29 minutes ago, DMT Elf said: What if Nahm was always Leo's sock account, and the guy in the actuality of being videos is an actor, and Leo engineered this whole ordeal over 6 years just for his own self amusement?? Any thoughts? Don't fuck with my brain so much! I don't claim any truth. I just share my personal experience. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fopylo Posted April 23, 2022 Author Share Posted April 23, 2022 19 hours ago, DMT Elf said: What if Nahm was always Leo's sock account, and the guy in the actuality of being videos is an actor, and Leo engineered this whole ordeal over 6 years just for his own self amusement?? Any thoughts? Very interesting Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fopylo Posted April 24, 2022 Author Share Posted April 24, 2022 I really wonder if Leo is sneaking here 🤔 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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island Posted June 8, 2022 Share Posted June 8, 2022 I was from the actualized forum, though not a very active member What's with the rivalry? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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