Orb Posted June 21, 2023 Share Posted June 21, 2023 Meditation doesn't feel comfortable the way it used to. It is still KNOWN that I am awareness, love, consciousness, etc. This is still knowledge, still beliefs. Thought has no place to rest, it doesn't know whether to go right or left, within the body or within the unborn source. Thought hides behind the Self and Consciousness and all those lofty words, and avoids the possibility that even those beliefs are beliefs. What happens when the belief "I am Love, Consciousness, Awareness, etc" stops arising? Notice how thought always wants to ground itself in something, examples are : Love, Consciousness, Awareness, Being, Source, God, Buddha-Mind. What happens when that activity stops arising? Quote Mention "Mediocrity is gone. Mind is clear of limitation. I seek no state of enlightenment. Neither do I remain where no enlightenment exists. Since I linger in neither condition, eyes cannot see me. If hundreds of birds strew my path with flowers, such praise would be meaningless." - A Comment on the 8th Ox Herding Picture Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 21, 2023 Author Share Posted June 21, 2023 I am not Love, consciousness, awareness, etc. I am also not a human or an object. But who is the "I" that is interested in knowing what it is or is not? Quote Mention "Mediocrity is gone. Mind is clear of limitation. I seek no state of enlightenment. Neither do I remain where no enlightenment exists. Since I linger in neither condition, eyes cannot see me. If hundreds of birds strew my path with flowers, such praise would be meaningless." - A Comment on the 8th Ox Herding Picture Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 21, 2023 Author Share Posted June 21, 2023 The expansiveness of the Self feels great, but my heart tells me this is another step on the path. Can even the Self be transcended? Quote Mention "Mediocrity is gone. Mind is clear of limitation. I seek no state of enlightenment. Neither do I remain where no enlightenment exists. Since I linger in neither condition, eyes cannot see me. If hundreds of birds strew my path with flowers, such praise would be meaningless." - A Comment on the 8th Ox Herding Picture Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted June 21, 2023 Author Share Posted June 21, 2023 The onion has been peeled further. "I" or "I Am" is the most essential form of Ego. First it's I (assumption that theres a Self), then I Am (assumption that this Self has agency/doership), then I am X (Assumption that this Self that has agency is confined to a sense-object). Going all the way back to the "I" sense feels good, it's lighter, less personal, but still theres a sense of being grounded in something. Quote Mention "Mediocrity is gone. Mind is clear of limitation. I seek no state of enlightenment. Neither do I remain where no enlightenment exists. Since I linger in neither condition, eyes cannot see me. If hundreds of birds strew my path with flowers, such praise would be meaningless." - A Comment on the 8th Ox Herding Picture Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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