Cupcake Posted January 26 Share Posted January 26 (edited) There isn't a specific theme for this journal. It will cover different aspects overall. Edited January 26 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 26 Author Share Posted January 26 Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 26 Author Share Posted January 26 I'm recently exploring the idea of good luck. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 26 Author Share Posted January 26 (edited) This will be the format of my journaling henceforth. Edited January 26 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 26 Author Share Posted January 26 (edited) I need people with 7 qualities in my life. People who understand me People who know how to trust me People who show me maturity People who are competent People who know to exactly handle me and the drama that is created People who are totally fair and not biased. Healthy, honest, non judgemental, direct, confrontational and extremely loving, courageous, protective, matured, forgiving and extremely competent. Edited January 26 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 26 Author Share Posted January 26 (edited) I'm trying to make a list of fragrances that are really suitable for me. Lavender Cedarwood Bergamot Peppermint Sandalwood Macadamia Almond Honey Lemongrass Beer Nutty Red velvet cake Update 1 I also had a ton of discomfort in my tummy yesterday. Update 2 Edited January 27 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 27 Author Share Posted January 27 (edited) I just woke up. Friday January 27. I am gonna have tea and I don't know. I had cereals for breakfast. With honey. Now I'm watching TV and I'll be having lunch. A bit depressed. I bought a lipstick to feel better. I'm trying to forget Actualized.org forever and remove that place from my head. I feel secure and safe on this website. Slowly and gradually the poison of Actualized.org is leaving me. I was heavily traumatized there and I'm in therapy and recovering. Edited January 27 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 27 Author Share Posted January 27 I am investing a bit into cosmetics to feel better. I bought products from bath and body works. I had a fresh cold shower and I used this new gel. And it was pink in color and it was nice. Very effective at cleaning. And I used a new orange colored shampoo and it was really good too. Gave me a fresh feeling. I don't like the ones heavily loaded with chemicals. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 27 Author Share Posted January 27 Leaving Actualized Org is the best decision I ever made.. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 27 Author Share Posted January 27 Yesterday I purchased some baby shampoo because my hair has become very delicate. So the baby shampoo is kinda gentle. It also has a mild fragrance. All other shampoos are way too strong in their fragrance and I get a headache. So these baby shampoos are quite mild with a good smell. One of them I really liked. I never gonna purchase those high end shampoos with strong fragrance. I literally love the fragrance. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 27 Author Share Posted January 27 (edited) I have to remember to empower myself. I don't know where the next leg of my journey is going to take me. I also need to import some of my entries. I have to live. I have to nurture myself. I learned some lessons. In fact I learned a lot of lessons. I feel like I am growing up really fast. This has always been the case. Edited January 28 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 28 Author Share Posted January 28 My life is infinitely better after dumping Actualized.org. That place is a hell hole especially for those who struggle with emotional issues. It can take a toll on you. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 29 Author Share Posted January 29 (edited) This is my new logo. Greetings Actuality of Being community. Thank you Phil and community for Welcoming me Cupcake Edited January 29 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 I'm trying to improve everyday And I'm only feeling better. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 I've also reduced my communication with people online. Now I just keep to myself. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 (edited) I'm very very happy right now. I'm getting my favorite stuff without worry. Edited January 30 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 (edited) I'm doing fine. I don't have anything to worry. (never bb me with personal stuff) Actualized.org is no more a part of my life. I had a bad experience there and I had planned long ago back in November/December that I would be out of that place some day somehow. Leo had been building too much pressure on me on a personal level. He had threatened to ban me on multiple times. So it was getting a bit not so comfy in that place for a long time. I'm glad that somehow im no longer having to be there. And I'm free. I have zero purpose to answer any questions related to that place since it doesn't exist in my Self-o-phere anymore. I'd like to quote what Proserpina said about that place because that resonates with me as well. So I quote Proserpina - "I've decided to probably stick to using this public journal now. I don't particular enjoy having Leo breathing down my neck, watching my every movement, fearing I'm going to be IP banned any moment like before. It's painful. Atleast here, I can breath easy and express my self in a relatively similar format (with some downsides). It's like I was crucified for jaywalking. I want to express myself freely, I like to write free flowing what he deems 'verbal diarreah'. My disability, what I have had no choice in having had to live with, is called unhinged by him. I already feel infinitely better here. I don't even care if anyone even reads my journal as long as I psychologically know it's public then that makes the difference in how I write and formulate my thoughts. I put more effort into my thoughts and writings. I need a place without Leo breathing down my neck but not a discord. Discord formats don't work for me for some reason. " I couldn't have expressed it better than Proserpina. Yes you can't develop or grow in a place where you feel constant fear running down your neck. It's unhealthy. Period. Edited January 30 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 I hate how in every situation it's the mentally ill people who are blamed and people who are normal take no responsibility at all. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 I'm already in therapy.. And I'm always facing difficulties being too close to people online so I kinda avoid that, I can get hyper nervous because I have social anxiety. I have to be around people who already know me in real life since many years, someone who I can actually sit down to lunch with. Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake Posted January 30 Author Share Posted January 30 (edited) The Kalahari desert is my inspiration. I'd love to live in this room lol. The breeze is growing stronger. How to remove heavy metals from the body. Edited January 31 by Cupcake Quote Mention Everything is beautiful My Snapchat handle is valleymind1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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