Yes for the first time I'm actually really feeling deeper than ever before. I'm just frustrated that I tend not to take action like today I haven't trained but I will before I go to sleep. Im just still deciding how I feel about my path, I've reached a stage of where I feel like I don't need any special state anymore but I feel regret for not being this is way when I was younger for being this old living with my mom mainly regret. But I also no longer feel so helpless I have a plan and a way I want to live I just want new friends to make I'd see if I hit the bar but I have no money or weed and I feel idk weird trying to socialize not stoned with strangers idk it's weird. But happy to be here been reading alot.