@Kevintheres always good old fashion therapy. You can talk with someone actually qualified....or you can get some spiritual platitudes from folks here.
Lol, well good luck with all THAT.
Honestly, sounds like you dont have parents, or are one of the lucky few whos families are well adjusted.
This shit just isnt gonna work for most.
As above so below, as within so without...
To look inward IS to look outward. So im always doing both.
Knowledge is recieved...consciousness is expanding, we are all moving the ball forward by moving our own balls forward. In the guise of "the self" we evolve the whole.
Sounds like youre more "bhakti" than me....im more on the "jnana" side of things. Im interested in how things are this or that way, i want to dig into it. Im here! Im curious! I dont need to "zen" about shit...i want to learn how all the parts work, what the mechanisms actually do, not just be happy hitching my wagon to some kind of new age "everything is everything" philosophy.
Is it truly so simple as this?
I'll agree with the last statement you made. To say a thought arises out of nowhere is just a little reductive, i would wager.